This weekend has been a little weird because Thursday was my birthday, I took Friday off for a procedure, I’ve been sick, and it’s the middle of April and snowing.
Summer/my wedding can’t come soon enough.
Thursday Austin and I had probably the best dinner we’ve had to far in our small town, at a place called Ho-Sta-Geh (no idea how to pronounce it, don’t worry), which is situated on top of a mountain overlooking the ‘city’.
It had beautiful views!!!
We started with a nice bottle of wine (!!)
And the crab cakes appetizer, I forgot to take a picture of (bad blogger).
Then came my salad.
I also ordered an appetizer as my meal, since I was nearly stuffed by the time it came and none of the meals really appealed to me. It was a caramelized onion and gorgonzola steak flatbread pizza. The steak was literally falling apart in my mouth.
Austin ordered some sort of fancy ravioli with chicken. I don’t know why they were green and orange but it was kind of cool!
Overall it was an amazing dinner and birthday ! XOXO
As mentioned, I took Friday off from work (no I was not up late partying for my birthday) because I was going to Buffalo to get a procedure to help my ongoing issues with back pain and SI joint dysfunction. I talked about it WAAAAYYYYY back in December in this post, and yes I’m still dealing with it!
The cycle since December has done a little like this:
1. In pain and can’t do exercise.
2. Rest to see if helps- it doesn’t.
3. See doctor. Do prescribed PT program. for a couple of weeks.
4. Helps a little. I start exercising again.
5. Back to pain.
6. See different doctor. Do prescribed PT program for a couple of weeks.
7. Helps a little. I start exercising again.
8. Back to pain.
I’ve gone through this cycle for the past FOUR months and have seen 4 different doctors. I have not gotten any long standing relief. Friday I had an injection in my SI joint but I’m scared that’s just really masking the problem and not fixing it. I am starting to think that there’s really just not a doctor down here in my area that can help me. Top notch doctors in this field are not flocking to rural remote areas of WNY. I cannot run, bike, or do other activities I enjoy doing because of this injury. I know that it could be worse…I could have some terminal illness so I shouldn’t complain. However when this happened in December I had no idea that it would carry on this long. Part of the cycle is also where I get frustrated and give my SI joint the big “F U” and go on a run or bike ride or do some intense exercise anyways, because I’m sick of resting and just want to feel good again, which obviously isn’t good for it. But if I’m going to be in physical pain I feel like “What the hell, I might as well be mentally happy”. To top is off I’m trying to manage this anxiety that I’m going to gain weight and not fit in my wedding dress. (I haven’t yet, so this anxiety is completely unfounded, but it’s taking a toll mentally).
I just don’t understand why most doctors don’t really care about what is actually wrong with you. They just want to give you pills to mask the problem and send you on your way. Is it really that much to ask to have a knowledgeable doctor that really wants to help you? As a teacher I know there are good teachers and bad teachers, but I encounter far more of the former. I honestly can’t believe I’ve seen 4+ medical professionals about this problem and absolutely no one can figure out what to do. It’s frustrating physically and mentally because I want to get back to the things I love doing. I’m starting to think I will live with this for the rest of my life and just deal with it and work around it like I’ve been doing for the past four months. The only other option is SI joint surgery and I really don’t want to do that.
Sorry this post sounds a little ‘woe is me’. It’s not the end of the world, just something that frustrates me. Like I said, it could be worse. I’ll just try to keep my head up and ‘deal with it’.
What is your experience with doctors? What do you think makes a good one?